feelin' wimpy

[moominmolly]

I was depressed for a good chunk of this week, but I've lifted out of it. (Hooray!) However, I had been planning to bike to work and back with ectophylla today, but I wimped out; I'll try on Monday or Tuesday when there's not an impending hurricane-edge storm. It might not even rain! It's not, now! So, it's one of those mornings where I feel a little lame for doing what does seem like the right thing for me. (She went ahead and biked, I believe; go her.)

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[fanw.livejournal.com]

Avoiding hurricanes is not wimpy. It's just a good idea. There's be more biking weather soon, donchou worry.

[(Anonymous)]

Indeed she did bike to work today. Her bike sits proudly against her file cabinet as if to say "just try it, punk."

Oh, and I understand about depression this week. I couldn't really wake up most of this week. Lack of sleep combined with lack of sunlight did it for me. Last night I finally slept the full eight hours but I could tell my body wanted more. I'm functional today but I should sleep more often.

[pseydtonne.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I wrote the above.

-My name is Satan and I approve of this message.

[montacute.livejournal.com]

it doesn't help with the feeling of lameness, i know, but i don't think you're lame for doing what seems right for you.

there's a significant argument to be made that moderating our impulses toward unhealthy extremes is itself a sign of self-understanding, responsibility, maturity and personal growth, even if that's hard to believe for those of us with an ingrained romantic delight in the challenges of the athletically, the artistically or the emotionally difficult (and/or painful).

(hey, did the above just sound totally weird? or, like, totally unlike me? it comes from my buddhist book of Advice for New Faculty. i don't know, i'm not very inherently buddhist, which is one reason this book fascinates me. anyway, i'm not always sure it isn't bullshit, but i think i'm going to try to work with its suggestions for a while. among the major ones are: patience! and: tolerance! even of one's own self, and failings.)

(was the above totally not helpful? if not, i'm sorry; i plead jetlag.)

[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

No, it's absolutely helpful -- I am very bad at moderation. As I was just saying to someone else, I think that part of my problem is this: I know that I need exercise to stay sane. I do go through periods of not exercising. I always have an excuse (illness, not enough sleep, stress elsewhere, etc); however, a lot of these things can be caused by not exercising. So, in order to get OUT of not exercising, I know that I will need to work through at least one serious problem that other people would counsel me out of working through, or which seems like a questionable idea at the time. But in the end, it's good for me to have worked through that.

Basically, I'm teaching myself that sometimes it's a good thing to ignore moderation. As a result, whenever I USE moderation, I have a little doubting voice at the back of my head asking, "is that REALLY the right thing to do?"


But, of course, there's also a huge part of me that just likes big romantic challenges for the sake of them. I should definitely temper that from time to time, and cut myself some slack. :)

[cuthalion.livejournal.com]

Just don't go overboard with the moderation.

[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

It's such a PROBLEM!