I am *so* going through this too, and I don't think I really realized it until you posted this.

I feel like some parts of my brain are almost being re-arranged, and I don't even know where they will eventually settle. I have some hints of the shape, but the process really *does* feel just like the disorientation my kids have in growth spurts.

And I suspect no-one can really hold everything at once all of the time, maybe not even most of the time; it just sometimes looks like they can from the outside.